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That last chapter has been written in indelible ink.   Now, a new chapter is beginning with no restrictions.  I write my new life… Turn the page!  ….. Livonne

I closed the door on my old place this morning.  With help from friends and my son, we finished everything except a few outdoor pieces last night.. then this morning I was awake bright and early so over there at 6am .  By 8.30am, it was completely done.  A few injuries, an aching body and a new house that looks like a bombsite, but it’s done and I can now concentrate on writing the next chapter of my life.

When I shifted into the old place, I was worn down by life.  I felt like nothing would ever go right for me and that somehow I was cursed. I felt old and worthless if I’m honest.  I was facing surgery and didn’t really feel like I had anything to offer life.  I had finally conceded that life had beaten me.

Thanks to the security the place offered me and the incredible support from the wonderful women of Blue Gum Housing, after some time, I started to feel better again.  I felt rested, supported, safe and secure.  I felt so good in fact, that I built a garden which occupied so much of my time.  Once that was done, I decided to go back to college and study photography.

Only hoping to do a hobby course, I ended up enrolling in Certificate 4 instead and threw myself into it.  I met some incredible people and one of those is now my adopted daughter.  She filled a huge part of my heart that had been torn apart after losing my own gorgeous girl so many years ago and is as protective of me as I am of her.

After Certificate 4, I dove into Diploma and successfully completed it.   I   started doing some photography work, but eventually realised that I just didn’t enjoy that sort of work.  I wanted to make conceptual photography.  Everyday I would study tutorials online to hone the skills I needed to do what I wanted to do.  I managed to travel overseas for the first time in my life and went to China, England, France, Scotland, Wales and of course, Ireland.

Sadly, Blue Gum closed down and the house was managed by a government department who didn’t really give a damn about the people who they were supposed to be helping, so my safe haven was ruined.  The neighbours that I had made friends with both shifted and I was the last one standing there.  The last 2 years of living in that place was not at all peaceful.   I really started to feel like things would never change.

Two weeks ago, I got the offer of this new place I’m in now and accepted it.  This place is lovely and I can’t wait to build a new garden here, knowing this is my place and I don’t need to shift again.  I can’t wait to put my furniture where I want it and to set up a studio space where I can continue my art.

I’m so grateful for my old place and for the peace I had there, allowing me to feel alive and useful again.  I will miss my tree (pictured) that I admired every day of my 4.5 years in that place.  I will miss living near the community gardens that often doubled as my outdoor studio.  Even though I am thrilled to be starting again,  I was a bit sad to close that door this morning.

But here I am, with a new chapter and blank pages that I can fill with whatever I want.  I have so many plans and so many new adventures to write.  I’m so excited right now and feel like I have the most amazing future ahead of me.  I can’t wait to fill this new chapter with more adventures, more love and copious amounts of laughter.

My time is now and I don’t want to waste a moment of it.

Happy writing…. Livvy xxx